You know life can be very confusing/harsh at times , and you realize that there are times when your just not ready.

Here I am pretty much and enjoying life , enjoying my wife well she has been losing weight and has what they called severe COPD we have been dealing with this for a long time , she is on oxygen 24/7- - - like I also said she is dropping weight she was 170 pounds and she is now 80 pounds. just looks so frail. she sleeps probably 19 hours out of the day, I can just see her slipping away right in front of me.

Well had to get her to the hospital last Wednesday morning , needless to say not good. The Dr at least was straight up instead of sugar coating. We thought maybe with her losing so much weight in a short amount of time could be Cancer eating her up, They did a total body cat scan and thank God came back clean.

Yet he did tell her she had a lot of things that was not fixable. He told her that she was in what they call Severe COPD -- - END , which is exactly what it sounds like as to what that might mean.it means it's done can't get any worse & nothing they can do- - her lungs are totally shot. Just a matter of time which sucks all we can do is just wait.

She is at a point as to where she can't have any kind of surgery chances are is she will never male it off the table. So he talked to us and ask us what we wanted when things happen so it comes down to she will be a DNR.
He said if things start to go then if they try to do any CPR they would crush/break all ger ribs would not be pretty, you break those ribs then chances are they would puncture her lungs.

Soooo they are also very concerned about her weight saying she can't lose any more weight cause if she loses more then you have got where her organs will shut sown. The whole thing my friends is just a lose , lose situation , we have brought in Midland home health they doing Occup Theraphy , Physical Therapy and Hospice will be coming in soon.

I guess just needing to get this off my chest it's a lot to take in - - feeling so helpless knowing nothing we can do. Also makes me realize how simple the game of Basketball really is comparred to fighting for life , Life can be so rough at times makes reality sit in.

Now # 11 in the polls. These boys are pretty good guys--- -no quit

I'm just as glad to see Flory staying out of serious foul trouble early in games. Can't block shots from the bench

@kjayhawks2.0 Wow what a match , KU advances to sweet sixteen, jumping out 2- --0----Miami fights back wins the third and then slugfest in the fourth but we pull it out

Bill Self haters catching some heat from former players and other fans. Scott Pollard was quoted saying KU fans are just spoiled, others are saying some KU fans better be careful for what they ask for; - - -some UNC fans said making the NCAA tourney is a hell of a lot better then the NIT

Other UNC fans AND Duke fans saying that KU has never had 20 loss Seasons like they have had , some saying hell there was some UNC fans were wanting Roy Williams run out of Carolina and look what they ended up with, I have to agree with Scott and others KU fans well some anyways are just spoiled they have un realistic takes - -winning NCAA championships just aren't given to you on a silver platter. there is a lot that goes into that.- -Like who is playing their best ball , the health of the team , a team's draw . bad shooting nights , ya da , ya da , ya da

Hey guys just wanted to say Thank all my fellow Hawks for your gracious thoughts - -concerns and prayers . I'm so tied up with things my time is pretty limited right now but haven' forgotten anyone's message and prayers. I've just got so much going on right now just coming at me from so many different directions at the same time- - - - -- that my stress level is off the charts , I swear I think at different times just like I'm going to break.

I can't hardly look at her at different times and break down or close to. From the way she was not long ago until now. I will see her and wonder what the hell am I going to do when she passes I'll be so lost without her , every where I look I still she her in the house , She is kind of a hard read if you don't really know her but to me ------I fully get her and she has a heart of gold-- -huge heart and there is nothing she wouldn't do for you , she like would spend her last quarter on me if needed and buy me a candy bar od something she knew I liked instead of something on herself- -just crazy . -there has been a couple of times recently that I have woke up in the middle of the night and swore for sure that she was gone - -passed--- that our father had taken her home to rest and away from me --- -I've lost it when the time does come- I dunno think I'll crack/ Yrt thank you all for the thoughts they give me strength in these times-- ROCK CHALK MY FRIENDS------ROCK CHALK FOR LIFE

@nuleafjhawk Oh , ok my friend had no idea about that--- greatly appreciated,

You know what ? --I've just know no matter what, I'm going to be ok God is my rock and is and will be with me if things get worse, he will give me the strength that I need to make it through.

He is always with us and IF he thinks the wife has been through enough pain and suffering and takes heer home- -then I know she is in true bliss and couldn't be happier and knowing that I would be also for her --I'm going to be just fine. Thank you so much for your thoughts buddy

Man Tre is just solid- - --very solid , really have grown to like him - -alot , then we have " THE DAWG ' I actually think Melvin has gotten better with his three point shooting , and when he gets out on the break -- - -look out. NOW let's hope from last nights game take away Kohl is MAYBE coming out of that Season long drought on his three, if we can get some consistency from him just makes us that more dangerous , really pulling for Kohl/

Good to hear Coach Self for a change saying Darryn is doing good and feeling fine

@BeddieKU23 Ya I've read so many articles that Stokes just isn't worth the head ache. Almost sounds like stokes is a me , m , me type of guy - lot of distractions, been in fights with other kids at his school- -think there is a good chance the negatives out weighs the positive I'm good and I know it ---could be a real cancer to the other players on the team on AND off the court.

He obviously loves the attention as this recruiting should be over really don't believe he is any closer to announcing then when it first started. Even heard good chance in the end he never steps foot on any College court. that he will end up sitting out of College ball for a year play across the waters then enter for the NBA. just don't think with all this he is worth it --good talent just to much baggage/drama following him- -don't want him causing problems with fellow team mates.

I sure was glad to see KC invited us to come play them , my boys were slumping then I saw we had a three game series with KC coming up-thought were gonna be fine lol- - -- now relax all you paranoid people just having a little fun--just relax and breathe -- but I mean seriously? - -to be outscored 26-4 in a three game series is ummmm- - never mind. NY has now beaten KC 14 times in a row- -oh well badminton anyone lol

Just had to take a minute and put my two cents worth- - - - well possibly a nickels worth OR maybe a dime's worth if I really stretch it , lol .
Anyways what a great game last night, KU was playing with fire last night and yet came up with HUGE really good defensive plays in critical situations. Every time I turned around seemed like WV ha runners on the base path thought to myself oh CRAP they bout ready to bust this game open , and yet NOPE KU would make some great plays to get out of it.
I wonder some I wonder if some people just don't quite grasp what a huge win this was for KU last night. I hadn't realized till the announcers said that WV had the top ERA in the conference yet not only that but also top TEN in the Nation in ERA. Ranked # 9 in the Nation also- -just a solid club all the wat around. Great defense themselves , but the Boys showed them some aluminum - -keep it going guys -let the Nation know we are KU and from Lawrence ROCK CHALK

Hey guys just wanted to say Thank all my fellow Hawks for your gracious thoughts - -concerns and prayers . I'm so tied up with things my time is pretty limited right now but haven' forgotten anyone's message and prayers. I've just got so much going on right now just coming at me from so many different directions at the same time- - - - -- that my stress level is off the charts , I swear I think at different times just like I'm going to break.

I can't hardly look at her at different times and break down or close to. From the way she was not long ago until now. I will see her and wonder what the hell am I going to do when she passes I'll be so lost without her , every where I look I still she her in the house , She is kind of a hard read if you don't really know her but to me ------I fully get her and she has a heart of gold-- -huge heart and there is nothing she wouldn't do for you , she like would spend her last quarter on me if needed and buy me a candy bar od something she knew I liked instead of something on herself- -just crazy . -there has been a couple of times recently that I have woke up in the middle of the night and swore for sure that she was gone - -passed--- that our father had taken her home to rest and away from me --- -I've lost it when the time does come- I dunno think I'll crack/ Yrt thank you all for the thoughts they give me strength in these times-- ROCK CHALK MY FRIENDS------ROCK CHALK FOR LIFE

@crimsonblu22 I wish it was vacation lol. Just a lot of things going on. My wife is now on Hospice care heard a couple of different time tables going on with her/ I've been told two to six months , then also been told by the head nurse she is thinking more of three to four weeks. so there has been many episodes trying to take care for her------been trying but has become to much I just can't do it any longer'

My own health has really went hill now also , jus had a total knee replacement within the last month , can't hardly get around myself We decided that both of us are going into nursing home probably sometime next week - -just to much coming at me from all directions a lot of stress mentally Thanks for checking

@mayjay In the NCAA Baseball standings they are number 7

@BShark This team is worth it.- -Now I show my lack of knowledge. Is Baseball a revenue sport for KU ?

Now number 7 -- -Wow lordie have mercy. Smartest move by KU when KU managed to get this guy from LSU like 5 years ago now is it? just keep getting better and better

Now # 11 in the polls. These boys are pretty good guys--- -no quit

@wissox83 for sure not stokes - - --major head case.

I'm so sick and tired ofall this stokes drama. the kid loves being in the spot light - - --center of attention he needs that. I really feel with all the money he is asking in NIL and the distraction he is going to be - -he wants it to be all about him/---HUGE DISTRACTION he is NOT WORTH IT. major head ache BTE BYE he could be the final nail in Coach Self's coffin